i am back at school. uH. life has been full of partying, sleeping and not revising.

how is it gone 7pm, i swear i only got up a little while ago, only now remembering how much of my day has been spent painting a dumb response in acrylics, uh uh uh
i am sewing felt hearts on my tights to wear tomorrow, it’s only just occured to me how much stuff you can make from felt/by felting. I have looked at clothes diy blogs and they felt different things into clothes and use fabric paint on tights which has inspired me to do so also. as a new project to do i am going to try and remake tavi’s pom pom jumper as it’s amazing, well, pretty much everything about her is but that’s not the point!

Born To Die - Lana Del Rey

A song-by-song review of my first listen, with each part under 140 characters. I was expecting to really like this because there was something about 'Video Games' which I could quite put my finger on but still liked, despite it being like nothing else I listened to. I have to say I was more than a bit disappointed, but nonetheless, here is my opinion:

Born To Die - Like a dream but a really long dream which gets slightly dull and is a bit depressing, y'know?

Off To The Races - If Cher Lloyd could sing, this is what it would sound like. Surprisingly, I like this quite a bit. Endings alright too.

Blue Jeans - Lyrics are a bit sentimental but her voice is so pretty. Could listen to it for an abnormally long time. The ending is a bit sudden :-(

Video Games - I love this and I'm unashamed to. Still incredibly dream like and over-sentimental but her voice is so soothing I don't know.

Diet Mountain Dew - As terrible as Diet Mountain Dew. I don't understand what this is or where it's come from but so terrible.

National Anthem - Intro is like listening to U2 and having your ears popped. The subject and her voice are great and in contrast to the whole album. Favourite.

Dark Paradise - If we just ignore how sentimental this is, this is really interesting and kind of beautiful. Her voice is SO GOOD. No one agrees.

Radio - Lots of singing alone and just being beautiful.

Carmen - "She laughs like God" bit weird, but I like the song even if the lyrics are too sentimental and a bit crap again.

Million Dollar Man - I feel like this sounds French and a bit sorrowful in places. Kind of feels like it should be a grand finale, but it's not.

Summertime Sadness - A key theme in this album is lack of respect for herself and her body. She sounds a bit of a slut here. It's alright.

This Is What Makes Us Girls - Nice title. I don't think I agree with any of this, but as an ending it's pretty good and brings the whole theme together.

So in conclusion, not a huge fan or half what I wanted/was expecting. There's no denying I enjoy her voice and think she has unusual and entertaining qualities but the whole message of the album was too sentimental, focused on being young and foolish and whether it's her intention to be ironic or not, she seems to have no idea what it was to be a feminist. I can't be sorry for her. I don't think this will be something I come back to a lot which is a shame due to the fact that I have spent £24 on the vinyl. 

Oh, I wish I had a boyfriend, I wish I had a loving man in my life.
I wish I had a father, maybe then I would have turned out right.
And now I'm just crazy, I'm totally mad.

Last night was spent with Bernadette and Billy drinking adequate amounts of Carlsberg and smoking endless amounts of cigarettes to which led to Billy serenading me with "Lust for Life" which if anyone knows me, is one of my favourite songs of ALL time. Waking up was beautiful; it was snowing and Pilchard the cat was snoring happily on the end of the sofa and I didn't for once actually mind leaving at 10am to meet my Mother for lunch. I bought some green denim hotpants, and Bernadette gave me her navy lacoste jumper to wear for the time being so I now have the perfect outfit to meet Callum in London on Valentines Day (not that I believe in that commercial poo) which as I wrote to Jack in his Valentine delivery thing at school, Hitler made a public holiday and declared it a day for 'love making' so by taking part in Valentines Day, you are actually following Hitler.

Mam took me to see War Horse which I did tear up in considerably. It's a beautiful book but I also believe that the film captured the plot and context very well, also as the woman in front said, the boy who played Albert was pretty tasty.

I'm going to sit and paint my nails grey now to reflect my intensely deep (melodramatic) mood - I am going to see family tomorrow uH and then associate with chavs on Dad's estate. livin' it up.