to think that i only have four exams left until i never have to leave school is quite worrying. my headteacher told me today that i'd be left to my own devices. clearly, she doesn't know what my devices are and is unaware that she is giving me terrible advice.
however, unlike the usual drug fueled and random sex filled summer i had last summer, i feel that this summer it will be a slightly more dignified affair. i've decided that i will give up smoking, anal sex and mdma in hope that i will become a more pleasant individual.
i know this sounds ridiculous and unlike me, but maybe it's time i grew up; took hold and treasured what i have close. this summer will now be filled with going to london, teaching english in my new job,  ludicrous amounts of drawing and possibly finding a summer romance.
who knows? maybe i will become the person i always aspired to be.

meanwhile, i sit here avoiding revision with the overhanging feeling of disappointment nigh. maybe if i do well in my gcses i'll buy myself a new cat. or maybe, i'll still be the same arty 'hipster' shit i always was. hopefully, i'll cheer the fuck up and stop being so melodramatic about every situation that faces me.